Ride Free Lyrics, copyright 2009 Ben de la Garza
“At the Table”
I thought that you loved me, but you weren’t sure
Now I’m not sure if you’re even able
Am I a bastard for leaving you at the table?
And it’s true I don’t understand
Your inner workings or a supposed master plan
But you can be sure that I want to
I just shy away ‘cause it almost breaks my mind
I see that you want to cry, but the feeling is fleeting
Tears well up, then gone
Meanwhile thoughts are boiling over
Can’t shake catastrophes, gonna have to postpone her
And it’s true you don’t understand
After all how could you, when you move like a whirlwind?
Take a breather, let the past be gone
It’ll just come back to bite you when the night is still
“Amen”
The system makes me feel so small
When I come home alone it’s an endless fall
So I get wrecked at the bar and turn my insides to charcoal
But somehow I’m still kicking like a baby in my soul
I’ve never seen anything so sexy in all my life
It helps to cut me loose from all the panic and strife
I may make changes to my style
But you know it’s a facade if you make me smile
She was with her dad working on the car
I was marveling at her beauty as I strummed my guitar
This picture of the Virgin Mary made me think
But I forget about what ‘cause I caught a glimpse and she winked
She makes me feel so young, like back when I thought I was on the top rung
I know that when I see her again
I’m gonna see tears in her eyes and say Amen
‘Cause that’s the way it’s meant
“I Can’t Stay Away”
You just keep right on dogging me
Walking on me like some worn out welcome mat
Treating me like some low down dirty fool
But I guess I play the part
‘Cause I can’t stay away from you
Last week I vowed to close the door
In my apartment, just me and my guitar
Turn off the ringer and try to clear my head
Two hours later guess what I did instead?
I couldn’t stay away
I can’t stay away from you
Not a penny in my pocket, just driftwood on these shores
Barely got the energy to lift my head over my shoulders
But not looking for no pity, just something shiny and new
Something to take my mind right off of you
‘Cause I can’t stay away
Stay away
“Choices”
Yesterday the train got sidetracked
Too much debris on the rails
Sadness touched the horizon
The wealthy yachts set sail
Campers set fire to the hillside with one stray match
There’s storm out on the desert working up its strength to attack
And you sit in your room
Yeah, you’re so depressed
The world’s not afraid of you
But you’re scared, you’re a mess
Baby, you and I, we’re not babies
Haven’t been for some time
Don’t matter what you believe
You gonna be sane or crazy? It’s your mind
I stand on a solid rock mountain
Breeze coming up from the North
Down below the hawks are restless, dive bombing back and forth
All of these animals around me, none of them can shed a tear
We try to control our emotions, and that’s where we’re headed I fear
But you sit in your room
Yeah, you’re so depressed
The world’s not afraid of you
But you’re scared, you’re a mess
Baby, you and I, we’re not babies
Haven’t been for some time
Don’t matter what you believe
You gonna be sane or crazy? It’s your mind
But take my hand, I’ll lead you through the land
You see I’ve fallen alone, but got back up with love
I know that you can too
After all, what else are you gonna do?
Make them stop shaking their heads
Better to die alive than live dead
Ooooh
“Ephemeral”
You’re overwhelming and ephemeral:
A Luna moth in the woods on a moonless night
And if placid dreams are replaced
With trampling horseshoes and racing hearts
You know I’m still me, and I ain’t mean
Your family thinks they know you
I know I don’t know you, you don’t know yourself
Sunken hearts are treasure
Gotta dig them up, polish them off
And if placid dreams are replaced
With silent dangers and backwards glances
I know you’re still you, and you ain’t cruel
Do you know that you got me walking on eggshells?
Do you know how it feels to be heavy in your mind, in your heart?
“Sweet Delusion”
I try to keep a watchful eye, but time keeps passing by
Through the city, with a smile on her face
Sweet Delusion paves the way
And as we pass upon the road
There goes another I’ll never know
But I follow your footprints to the lake ‘cause I got no God to forsake
When you’re angry, please count to ten
I hope by that time that I’m gone
We overlook confusion, blind by love
The clouds part
You’re the star, spotlight’s the sun
And as we pass upon the road
There goes another I’ll never know
But I follow your footprints to the lake ‘cause I got no God to forsake
“A Dry Wind”
Waiting for the ground to crack
Ain’t seen a drop of rain
A dry wind be whipping
The wind just blew a leaf into my lemonade
A dry wind be whipping
Newspapers blowing up against Buddy’s car
And I’m waiting for the ground to crack
Ain’t seen a drop of rain
A dry wind be whipping
Thunderclouds
“My Words”
My words fall into spaces
Layers of stone and dirt pile on top of them
And again I’m at a loss
Whipping tongues have heavy cost
The birds fly off to places
The sun, it follows them and their family
And again I’m at a loss
Staying in the same place, you gather moss
There’s a road to cross
“Gonna Find Love”
I’m gonna find me love
I know it’s there to be had
All the days alone, they might have driven me mad
But I keep my heart open like the sea
Money don’t buy you love, but you know it still ain’t free
Gotta keep looking, keep pushing
Keep searching, keep working
You know I go head first, and the feet, they always follow
Sometimes I hit a wall, there’s no man completely hollow
If I could only see your heart’s truest desires
My crooked motives would be smoldering in fire
But I’ll keep searching, keep working
Keep looking, keep pushing
Here I stand reliving in my head
Conversations where hurtful things were said
I watched your shadow shrink down the city street
Wondering if that was it for you and me
It’s hard to stop this momentum in my head
This hand I grabbed blindly
Well, it has led me to the land of disarray
Throw me down a rope so I can climb away
“Respirate”
Nestled beneath your winter blanket
Peaceful as the first born leaf
Dream slow motion ‘round the twilight hours
A mind dissolved and out of reach
I can’t breathe for you
Please don’t fade, please respirate
You can’t touch the outer layers of this heart
Ignorant bliss, suspended childhood
No desire to mingle with your sort
The dull, dim lit confusion
I can’t breathe for you
Please don’t fade, please respirate
My heart shudders at the very thought of your image caught in the spiral
The breeze blows the hair back from your eyes
I give you a push, now walk alone child
I can’t breathe for you
Please don’t fade, please respirate
“The Last”
I keep on thinking you were the last one I loved
My pride's a sunken ship
There are those who pass on
And lovers make new
The firelight reminds my heart
There’s an echoing chime in the back of my mind
And I’m searching the skies for truth
The people hold hands as they sway like the tide
Singing, ‘You were the last one I loved’